Proved guilty until innocent

Our world acquires the greatest and the most informative knowledge on different types of poisons, the effect it can have on living beings; even the protection of highly dangerous ones to avoid giving it into wrong hands.

Our world acquires the greatest and the most informative knowledge on the basics of our life; how we function, how the pituitary gland is the single most important part of our body and how we react to positivity and negativity.

Our world acquires the greatest and the most informative knowledge on every

single element present and the information pile is getting larger and larger.

Yet, we’ve all missed one poison. Due to the humdrum and constant routine of life, we’ve all inadvertently neglected the most toxic poison of all. Because it’s subtle, it’s inside of all of us somehow and someday, and we either embrace them with open arms or ruthlessly stomp down the remnants of that poison. You’ve all been left pondering on what and how this single-handed poison is capable on changing the entirety of the course of life.

That poison is none other than the gnawing and continuously bothering feeling that tears your logical thought process bit by bit, and element by element.

It is guilt.

Oxford Dictionary defines guilt as ‘the fact of having committed a specified or implied offence or crime.’ Even, in the most every-day sense, it can be defined as ‘a feeling of having committed wrong or failed in an obligation.’

Guilt or any associated terms is not as candid in life in comparison to court cases. There are many shades of grey to it that sometimes is quite hard to imagine. I’ve experienced it numerous times, and I am more surprised by how it envelopes me every time. It never ceases to gobsmack me how it just takes over you, in the very literal sense.

Unlike me, some people cannot handle guilt, and it turns into a form of chronic disease, where the feeling of self-hatred is the most prominent part of living. That feeling of “I never can be good enough” because of course, he/she can always be better.

Guilt is a signal to the happenings in your brain. It’s an indication to the ambiance you’re in, the people you surround yourself with; even the expectations you have for yourself. Hence, I am going to be very cliché here and my apologies for that.

My favourite TV show, Elementary, delivers a line from Sherlock Holmes to Joan Watson, that is very striking, and thus the very reason I am writing this blog at this moment.

“I’m an expert on poisons, Watson. I know virtually everything there is to know about them. But I’ve come to learn over the last few years that there is nothing on this planet quite so toxic as guilt.”

Joan Watson gazes on the gravestone of the patient she let die on the operating table

Joan Watson gazes on the gravestone of the patient she let die on the operating table

There is so much meaning behind that quote, and the writers pick it apart letter by letter in the entirety of that episode.

Guilt is something we don’t run away from. You have to face it in some circumstance in the future, if you haven’t already. It’s not one of those emotions that goes away suddenly, or one of those emotions you can ignore. No, if you think that, then you are wrong, sorry.

Guilt is an emotion that will sit and mock you until you either redeem yourself or accept defeat. Guilt is an emotion that will give you several headaches, and several introspective thoughts on your actions, and it bothers you constantly. That is guilt. It didn’t change, it isn’t changing, and it will never change.

I am not trying to scare anyone. No, that’s the last thing on my mind right now. All I am trying to do is make you aware, if you are not already. Guilt doesn’t only appeal for something you’ve done, or failed to do. Guilt can come for simply the way you think or you feel. It’s very, very discreet and you won’t be aware until it sets it firmly.

Guilt can change the course of the world all by itself, for the better or the worse depending on the circumstances, and the action taken against it. 

Guilt can be the fuel to change, or the fuel to destroy. It can be the incentive to make amends, or the incentive to strain the present. It can do anything really, if not taken the correct advantage of. Hence, any moment you feel guilty about the littlest of things, just apply the logical side of your brain into it. Guilt doesn’t equate to wrongdoing, and if the answer is illogical, then you are most certainly not guilty.

If the guilty feelings is a sign of fear, than a sign of caring, then I am telling you to apologise and let it go. Past is the past, and it cannot haunt anyone’s present or future.

That’s my view on the concept of guilt. It’s very fearless, but it shouldn’t consume you in any way. It’s stubborn, but it shouldn’t defeat you in any way. It may have a important place in courthouses, but it shouldn’t take precedence over your life.